my dearest —'-@
i miss you so much, i have so much to say but the more i think about it i can't say it. my lungs being to feel like its being constricted and my heart too. when i think of that, then it spreads to my shoulders, then neck, as fast as it comes I can't speak... think... talk... move. Everyday that passes, its an eternity, I haven't slept in 2 days.. a few hours will make it 3 days. I miss you. Every word I speak its how much I miss you. With the more I try to write, the more hours I just waste trying to tell you how much I feel. Then I become overwhelmed with both fear and love. I love you but I also fear of love.
I wanted to write you what truely means deep down in side of me, then that fear seizes my body, and i'm overwhelmed again. Sometimes I fear how much you love me and how much i love you. I fear how much i've taken time and haven't spent it telling you things. :) over all, i fear of fear. fearing of loving is worse then fearing of living. honey i think the lack of sleep is making me dilirious. I wish we were together... time sometimes testes me but i'll still wait. i miss you but love you more.
i miss you so much, i have so much to say but the more i think about it i can't say it. my lungs being to feel like its being constricted and my heart too. when i think of that, then it spreads to my shoulders, then neck, as fast as it comes I can't speak... think... talk... move. Everyday that passes, its an eternity, I haven't slept in 2 days.. a few hours will make it 3 days. I miss you. Every word I speak its how much I miss you. With the more I try to write, the more hours I just waste trying to tell you how much I feel. Then I become overwhelmed with both fear and love. I love you but I also fear of love.
I wanted to write you what truely means deep down in side of me, then that fear seizes my body, and i'm overwhelmed again. Sometimes I fear how much you love me and how much i love you. I fear how much i've taken time and haven't spent it telling you things. :) over all, i fear of fear. fearing of loving is worse then fearing of living. honey i think the lack of sleep is making me dilirious. I wish we were together... time sometimes testes me but i'll still wait. i miss you but love you more.
